the troublesome heart the tear in the eye the ashes of those who depart the costs of living a lie the promise of less spiteful vengeance of despairing caress what disturbs my night the promise of fright misguides my dreams obstructs my schemes a knife in one hand the harboured resentment fictitious remembrance conditioned debasement it closes the circle falsifies truth as faith a life in one hand the dignity of you without flow of breath - you who vacated, withdrew it closes the cycle leaves behind me: a wraith 18 III 2010